Keep Calm and Sparkle On

Guess who’s back, back again? That Wino’s back..tell whoever you feel like. 

If you don’t get that reference, then we can’t be friends. 

So, it’s been since 2019 that I posted. How’s life been? Any pandemics to speak of? No? Cool. We’ll leave that in 2020 with the murder hornets. 

If I’m going to say anything about the pandemic, when referencing it as a time of isolation and seclusion, it certainly was the start of me losing my sparkle.  

What’s a sparkle? Don’t worry…I’ll tell you. A sparkle, by my own definition, is that fiery bad ass bitch that lives inside you. It knows your worth, motivates you to live your best life, and doesn’t take any shit. That badassness is so powerful that it radiates from the inside to the point where you sparkle to those around you. See? Full circle. 

Now, is it possible for one to lose that sparkle? Yes. But, best believe that it always lives inside you. Sometimes, when self doubt kicks in, it may ghost you until you decide to find it again. And you know what? That’s completely okay. Every now and then, for a moment in time, anyone can lose themselves in their negative thoughts and anxiety – and it can mask that strong and incredible person that you truly are. With that said, don’t fret – my darlings, because that sparkle will always find its way back to the light. How’s that for a metaphor? I knew those never ending college loan payments were worth it. Anyway, let’s get back on topic before I forget what my point was…

A Sparkle. Everyone has one that makes them who they are, that makes them stand out in their own way. Even if a situation like a job that doesn’t bring out the best in you, or a world wide pandemic may have put it in the dark – it never ever means you won’t find it again. I know I did. You may say, “Well gee, I didn’t know I had a sparkle.” Don’t be silly, my friend – it’s just hiding. Good for you, and my newly awakened obnoxious optimism and love of trying to motivate people (blame it on the fitness and wellness journey) – I’m here to help you find it.

One of the many hats that I wear is a pre-school teacher, so it’s time for a lesson.

Today’s topic: How do I find my sparkle?

Have a passion? Don’t be afraid to go for it – no matter how many people doubt you. Those said doubters are just haters anyway. And, you know what they say…”haters gonna hate.” Let that fire turn into motivation until your passion becomes your reality.

Afraid to be yourself? I get that. Self doubt and everything that comes with it is consuming. I’ve been there. Although, it isn’t until you become so unapologetically who you are that you can truly start living. It’s also extremely liberating, believe me. Think about how much time we waste worrying about what other people think, and how their opinions of us effect how we act and react. I’ll tell you one thing – that’s no way to sparkle.

Want to better yourself? Don’t rely on anyone else to do it for you. It’s not their job – and no one has the energy for that. Often times we expect the people closest to us to be the ones to fix us when our sparkle fades. I’m not saying that those people won’t be there to pick us up when we fall or need support, but sometimes doing that is hard enough. Fixing yourself? That, my friend, is up to you. If you’ve lost your way, and want to take the steps to change that – then take it one day at a time into the right direction. Start a healthy habit and make it your goal to follow through. Hold yourself accountable. Love yourself first. It’s so completely worth it.

Me? I’m going to hold myself accountable by getting back to one of my passions – which is writing. See? I’m doing it right now.

Alright, that’s enough pre-school for one day.

I’ll leave you with this final thought: Life is a crazy beautiful ride that most of the time never makes sense. To that I say, embrace the glorious mess that it is – and make it your goal to kill it every single day. Keep calm, and sparkle on.